I am WEAK.

YES. I too have weaknesses.

I am weak in some stuff. I am a woman.

I am a woman with GREAT needs.

(well some sort. Most of the time its wants)

I am a lost soul.

(In bazaars looking for bargain)

I AM SAD and UNCONTENTED

Well fine. Enough with the drama. I just read an email from HR that there will be a bazaar in the pantry from the US and UK. Fine. I was on my way to the comfort room when I saw them comming to me. I tried to resist. I told myself that I am not going to buy any clothes or bags until next month. BUT WHAT WILL YOU DO IF THEY ARE THE ONES THATS RUNNING TO YOU?!



I kept my cool. I tried to be calm. I went straight to the comfort room without looking at those things. I looked in the mirror and told myself "YOU CAN DO THIS!" It's dinner time and off to the pantry. I wasnt looking (WELL OKAY the truth is that I WAS sort of PEEKING) gorgeous clothes....



I went back to my table and Chips said he was going down. I can do this. I just ordered a Grande Java Chip from Starbucks. Its way better. I was sad by the way... something was messing up with my thoughts.



Let me tell you this. I TRIED. I really did. I went inside the pantry to take a look. I hoarded like 5 tops and a bag. I had it all reserved. FAIL!!!



But when I got back to get it. I had to choose not to spend over 500 php for those things. So I found myself buying a top from MNG and a bag from Miss Sixty.

 

I FAILED.

BUT

I'M HAPPY <3 <3 <3

xoxo

Dear Diary

Apparently, weekends with me are boring.

and catching up with YOU is way better.

Why are some people being so insensitive?

I just wanna go home and sleep.

PERIOD.

PS. Go buy a life in EBAY if it's going to be WAY BETTER FOR YOU.

DEMMIT!

Wonderland

Sunday - Was a tiring day. I did set the alarm to 9:00 to go home and pick up my dog and parents for a lunch out. Apparently I was not able to  get on my feet by 9 and hit the shower. Instead I got up around 12. So I hurried to the shower and prepped up and went straight home. I treated my parents to lunch at Gerry's Grill. We had to wait until 6pm because Leila (my dog) was going to be groomed and the scheduled release is around 6 (PLUS the fact that my folks are getting that sweet treatement to each other again. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!) =]. Went on a little shopping spree (just a bag! and some cool shades!) But didn't splurge on shoes and clothes.  Around 7, I have to rush back home because my boyfriend and I are going out to watch a movie.

We were able to get the 9:45 last show in 3D and it's worth it! We were also given free stubs for a choice of popcorn or hotdog sandwhich, to which I failed to get since the cut off is 9pm. Bummer.

TO THE BLOCKCINEMA. Please indicate on your FREE STUBS that the freebies can only be claimed until 9pm.

Anywayzz.

JOHNNY DEPP! OMG OMG OMG! But I must give it to Helena Bonham Carter and her enormous head. She was really really good being the Red Queen. I absolutely love how she says "FAT BOYS! WHERE ARE MY FAT BOYS?" and "I LOVE MY FAT BOYS!"

The sword effect on 3rd is really really cool too! I mean it felt like it went out from the screen and almost hit us . *Okay exaggerating moment. But it's true ;-) Of course Anne Hathaway is okay okay but the amazing part is that how the hell the incorporated the hands of Alice on Mad Hatter's face?! I mean she was shrunked and all and I give it 4/5 Stars! because 5/5 can be SHREK or even Toy Story. OH these movies I gotta watch!

After the movie we went home another dvd night and watched the Vampire's Assistant. Since im dead tired. I fell asleep before the movie ended.

Another week of work. =] Can't wait for another payday. Must hit the beach on the 2nd of April.

Coutdown 4 months to go before the trip!

xoxo

Beach Love

Have you ever found love on the beach? I did. I just totally love the water. The waves. The sand. The sun. Although I don't like getting a tan or something. Weird huh?! I just dont want to get that really really really dark tan if you know what I mean. Also, the beach is one place that always reminded me something else ;) It is where I did crazy stuff like getting drunk and sleeping on the sand. Starring at the sky and you can totally have a good view of the stars and just the sound of the water. I just miss it.

I was planning to go somewhere this April, but the thought of bumping into people on a Holy Week makes me think twice. Either relax or just sleep? But either way I still want to go out. So this payday (cross fingers) I will / promise not to buy anything that I don't need except pay for my bills get new wedges from So FAB!, buy new clothes/dress, eat out, go to the gym etc. Or maybe get a new good book to read.


Speaking of books, I have completed ALL of Sophie Kinsella's series :) Yes, the Shopaholic series, Undomestic Goddess, Can You Keep a Secret and Twenties Girl. I really really love how she writes. It's like every girl is a Bloomwood Girl.  =]

I have to go now. Some Calibration.

                     "Lack of planning in your part does not constitute an emergency on my end."

the FOUR letter word.

This is defintely something and the most undiscussed topic in my entire life. The four letter word. The L word. the heart word. I have been wondering my entire life what it feels like to love someone. Is it scratching his back when it feels itchy? Doing his nails and laughing with him? crying with him? walking with him?  Geez is that the essence of everything? How will you measure the FOUR letter word? By years? Some people say it should not be measured as it should be. It should be unselfish and everything.

I on the other hand is selfish. Selfish in a way that I know whats mine and mine alone. But now I just realized that, that Four letter word is applicable for yourself. Because you should give the best for yourself first. Start with yourself and make an example of what it is to others.

While talking to a friend awhile ago I had an equation which relates to the Four letter word.

Time + Money = Love

Reimbursement of money * Hassle of time being together = Breakup

Still, love is trusting someone not to break your heart.

It's still overated and full of crap. PERIOD.

Stuck

Oh boy, I'm pretty sure everyone has this type of days. Yes, I must agree I have had one of those "I will be famous one day" moments and even had a list to begin with. So far my EDSA billboard is still too far fetched. Maybe the closest I can get is uploading my picture over Facebook. If that's what you call publicity. PFFT.

For now, I am stuck here for the next 600 days. More or less. I am not good with math for all I know it's going to be 365 days PLUS another 180 days which couldnt be 600 days. Know what I mean.

First EXTREMELY laziest day of 2010

FIVE MINUTES. Just 5 minutes. It feels like forever. My brain is floating. The aircon is totally on whatever temperature it is. My eyes are getting a blurry vision and I dont want to wear my glasses.

Today is the official laziest most extreme laziness for the year 2010. Note. it is only MARCH 3.

Its the 3rd week and im pretty much struggling on how to go off next week. I mean in my head all I can imagine is me on the beach just totally bumming. My Cebu flight will be on July and its only March. Must do something with coupons and be merry with it.

P.S not making any sense.... must eat some chocolates. And Shop. Wait have to stop shopping.

XoXo