December

I haven't written alot lately. I would love to look back everything that happened this year and it's not so nice. It feels like in the movies, and I don't like the drama. In a short span of time alot has happened and things you regret, but in the end you realize that things happen for a reason.

My dad died on August 30, 2010.20 days after his birthday. 20 days after that dreadful night of extending my patience while I fight back. Things do happen for a reason. Probably when God wanted to get my dad off this earth, he wanted me to be there.

Everyday, I would stare on his place in our garden. Greet him when I get home and say my goodbyes when leaving. Having my mental thoughts of him always saying the words "Mag ingat ka palagi" Having that mental picture of him at the door carrying my dog while bidding goodbye. Thoughts were only left that make me sad. That my plans for him will never happen. That deep inside I have this regret of not giving him what he wanted. I was planning to give it this Christmas but it was too late. I don't want to get drowned in this sorrow and Im going to leave everything behind. I miss him so much and all I can do now is stare at pictures and wear his big shirts. Thats the closest I can get to be with him. I'll see him in the future.


So this year is great in a lot of ways. Great emotions and other things. I don't want to go on details already. 4 more days until the next year. start fresh. I hope everythings gonna be okay and great. First things first. I have alot of things to do but really dont have time to actually materialize it. Okay how about finally applying for that visa so I can finally be with my grandmums? They are the the least that I have left as close as my grand mum... When everyone leaves the earth. =(

Oh Well....

Nasugbu Trip Part 1

I was supposed to blog about the Batangas Escapade we had. The camping and all those things. But then it was such a busy week, month, day... because of work and running errands. ( This paragraph was last 23rd.)

Okay so now I changed my mind and I promise to finish this TODAY. Get ready silent readers.

Earlier this month, we went to Nasugbu for our first beach experience this year. I have to tell you that everything was like my "first time". 

It all started I think it was labor day or something.  We all agreed to meet up and leave around 5am. But of course being the Filipino in the Filipino Time we left quarter to six.

It was I, Waleed, Polok (Waleed's brother) Aries, Charm, Alecs, Eya, Toffee and the Yaya of Toffee in the car. We had to leave first because the other guys will be leaving in the afternoon and probably we will be seeing them at night.

It was like 3-4 hour ride going to Nasugbu. So we arrived at the town around 9ish. We stopped by the wet market to buy some fish,veggies, rice, eggs and some other condiments and some more food to sustain us for our camping. It took us almost an hour and 30 minutes to finish the groceries and make another 30 minute - 40 minute ride on a rough road going to Eya's house.

It was almost 11am and THEY had to cook and prepare food for us to bring to the island. I SLEPT in the whole process of the cooking and preparing by the way lol! And I woke up around 2pm and I saw everyone sleeping too. So I had to wake them up because it is already afternoon and we might miss the afternoon beach thing. So we all packed up the food and went to the Pier in a secluded part of the mountain (which is scary because it was all rough roads and we had to go to the nearby pier where we are going to ride a boat going to Papaya Island.

@ the shore loading our stuff to the boat

Since the boat man is a friend of Eya's we had the boat like back and forth to fetch us and bring our other friends to Papaya Island. It is a 10-15 minute ride on the clear waters of Nasugbu. By the way with all the stop overs and the baggage thingie where we had to carry our stuff to the boat took us another 30-40 minutes. So we all arrived to the beach around 5pm. Just in time to see the sunset.

@ the pier before riding the boat

Aries and the others arriving

Sunset at Papaya Island

After getting all our stuff from the boat, we tried to settle in a nice spot and ate our LUNCH at 5pm. Then it was almost 6 and we had to set up our tent.

I had the feeling that I'm going to be pissed off because it was my first time to set up a tent and I have NO IDEA. Prior to that I should have googled it you know. BUT NO. So yeah the bottom line is that I wasted too much time in setting up the tent and took 4 people to do it bust still failed. But I think it's still nice manageable.

We had fish for dinner and some mussels and labahita.  Oh Gosh! All I can say is that every minute was worth it. Just sitting on the shore talking and laughing and by night it was a war of rain and mosquitoes. It was all good. Quite fun actually being away from the city and all and just being the survivor type.

I'll continue with part II next. Have to go now ;-)

Love Letter (Part 2)

I was going to post about  our Bank Holiday trip to Nasugbu. But I'll do that some other time. I really tried to make an entry about it but I'm so busy that I havent finished the whole thing. Will do it next time. :)

Meanwhile here is the second bribe letter to W. Which is part of my list. (which I think is fun to do but I'm pretty sure that this is not going to happen anytime sun. It's just fun!)

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Hi Baby,




As the 26th is nearly here, I would like to let you know as promised in my previous email.


Just in case (or probably in the future) you make it big (maybe before Christmas) or our anniversary, or maybe my birthday (Which ever comes first).


I will deeply appreciate a Louis Vuitton, Riveting Bag which is limited edition. =)


I promise to scratch your back more often before you sleep and maybe, well... or so so make you coffee every morning.

And here is the part you are NOT waiting for. The price tag. It's 3,300.00 =) (found it on ebay!)


Let me know if you still want to convert it in pesos.






XoXo


C

Threesome Partay!

If only celebration lasts like the whole month! I could be like eating like there's no tomorrow! April is such a busy month. Well first, Happy Birthday to our THREE lovable gorgeous hot friends Mavic, Charm and Aries.(YAY!). YES its a multiple celebration this month of April.

We celebrated Charm and Mavic's birthday last April 18. Although we didnt go to Manila Ocean Park, we headed to MOA to catch up around 7pm. They were already dining at Abe and I should say that they are one of those unforgettable food moments I have my entire life. Their crispy tadiyang or something and the pla pla blew me away. =) But the price also blew me away. Its really expensive like for the 15 of us it was already 7,500 pesos. Imagine that. But hey, we were all full and satisfied and kinda sad about the bill ;-).

Next stop was we went to Music 88 in Bluewave just beside MOA. They have nice compilation of songs and their food tastes fantastic! They even record the first 20 songs you sing. It was such a long night and we all went home like around 2 or 3ish in the morning. It was a work day the following day. Pfft.

April 24

Yes my most awaited day. I can eat all shrimps and crabs I want for FREE.  Aries celebrated his birthday last weekend at Bulacan. We all left Manila around 9ish and arrived around 12 (with alot of stop-overs and traffic)

 AND LOOK whats waiting on the table :) YUM!!! SEAFOOD!!!! =)

After eating, we headed to a resort nearby. I think it was called Paradise Resort. GOSH the temperature was like around 43-45 degrees. It was extremely hot and we all wanted to go for a swim. When we got there we waited for like another 30 minutes so we can avail the night swimming. We thought the water will be cool but its also hot. No difference at all with hotsprings boo. But we enjoyed the wave pool. The water was waaaayy cooler in that pool area.

The nice thing about that resort is that it's quite huge and there is a live band every night. So if you would like to chill out and relax for a bit before going again for another swim then you can listen to their live acoustic band and sing with them.

We got back to Aries' place around 10ish and we ate again and I had to sleep because I was dead tired.

AND I can't remember a thing because it was Sunday the next day and it was going to be another work week.

I wish for Bank Holidays. Oh Yes Thats Gonna Be Monday My Loves!

Thanks My loves for the birthday treats ! :)

XOXO

A Love Letter

Dear W,


I want this just in case you want to surprise me or probably make plans of surprising me on our anniversary. I promise I will be on total shock if you do so.

I will try my best to pull out this really jaw dropping surprised face. Here is one (out of the hundred things) that you can choose from.

A Pink MacBook :) its just a cover but its just around 2k. But the MacBook is of course something else. =) or any Pink laptop (I am willing to shell out some $$$$) if that is okay with you.



I will also be a very good girlfriend for the rest of the year and do all things you like (except enslave me or so.)

I will be posting more stuff for you to have a clear picture (of what I want) and options.

Items + a big kiss is much appreciated.

Thanks baby.

<3
C

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And that was the love letter I sent to W awhile ago. And he just laughed. I kinda talked to him about it and he was just smiling. You know how I soooo much <3 Pink. So I guess I pretty much did a great job! =) well let's see how it goes. I still have alooooottt more in mind. Well of course I still have to think what to give him on our 3rd year together.

Well time indeed flies so darn fast.

<3<3<3



xoxo

Hatin' MRT

Monday, April 5. The first day of the post holyweek madness. We are scheduled to get to Makati at 10am. Effin 10am. I like Makati, don't get me wrong. I just don't like the thought of going there. It takes me like around 5 minutes to set up a game plan on going to Makati and going back home. 5 MINUTES. But in reality it took us almost 2 hours going there and another 1 hour and 40 minutes going back home. Roughly 2 hours. WHY CAN'T IT BE FREAKIN 5 minutes?!

Waking up 30 minutes before the scheduled time, we had to leave our ride behind. It's MAKATI. Imagine how many stop lights? how many buses to cuss and scream at and people rushing everywhere, anywhere where where! Good thing Andres (the chef next door) is also going there. We all took off at the same time.

Rage #1: THE BUS

The last time I rode the bus was last year (FEBRUARY) going to Ilocos.. it's northbound and it's provincial so its not much to fuss about. But this time it's a scary thought of going Southbound and note this we are only taking the bus going to the train station which approximately will take you around 10-15 minutes on a regular ride. BUT THIS IS A BUS. It took us aroun 20-30 minutes reaching the station. When we got on the bus it was already jampacked and I had to stand up the whole time with my HUGE bag. The extreme part hasn't even started yet.

Rage #2: THE WALK.

After getting off the bus we had to walk like for another 5 to 10 minutes going to the train station. The prickly heat and the air pollution is very welcoming. I must say that I might have swore like 20 times already from the moment I rode the bus and walking to the train station.

Rage #3: THE LINE.

When I thought I was almost over the heat and everything, the long line does not surprise me. No ventilation no nothing. Just 5 long lines and everyone's body heat with extreme sweat. I have spared to this one as Andres the Chef did the purchasing on our behalf.

Rage#4: THE MRT.

Do I really need to be detailed on this part? MRT already describes every hell experience. Sweat, Bad odor, Sticky hands, Sardines, Standing up etc... be my guest enter whatever fitting word for this.

Rage#5: THE MALL.

Getting off Ayala was a slight mistake. I could have been off Buendia instead. We had to do another 15-20 minutes walk from the MRT to SM to GLORIETTA to LANDMARK to GREENBELT. Then I realized we were at the wrong landmark which was stated on the directions given. So we decided to take the cab instead. It only costs 40 pesos and probably a litter of sweat.

I credit and salute all those people who works in Makati comming from the north area. I will never have the same patience like you guys have. All those everyday commuting and getting canned like sardines in the MRT. I could have quitted just thinking of it. But the last rage is going home. Thank goodness there is a free shuttle. I got home free and effortless =). Just saved some major bucks and decided to make spaghetti for dinner.

Make believe

I am more than excited right now and I do not know where to begin. First of all, I was able to lose a couple of lbs last week. Which felt nice and I have eliminated junkfood and sweets for the whole week. We only have a day to fulfill ourselves with junk. Thank goodness I have my boyfriend with me. We'll he is getting buff again and I on the otherhand wants to lose weight and have gorgeous arms and legs.

I like looking at my phat pictures :) makes me motivated. So far I feel normal and I eat normal and I lose weight. Well I do hope and pray that this goes on. Good vibes :) I can do this before our scheduled trip which is 3 months from now. So.. I can effin do this!!


Okay enough with the weight talk. Last Saturday we headed to Phillips Sanctuary to have this team building. WE left the office around 5:30ish. We were like 5 cars and we were almost like half an hour away from the location and POOF the Pajero just overheated. We had to go back to Manila and get the other car instead and drive back. Waleed and I got there around past 10. It was all military stuff that we did. Zipline,mudslide,mudcrall,ropes etc. It was quite fun and tiring all at the same time.

I must credit this team building for shedding some more lbs hahaha! Well it's Friday and I have been lazy all the way... Will write something nice probably next week :)

I am WEAK.

YES. I too have weaknesses.

I am weak in some stuff. I am a woman.

I am a woman with GREAT needs.

(well some sort. Most of the time its wants)

I am a lost soul.

(In bazaars looking for bargain)

I AM SAD and UNCONTENTED

Well fine. Enough with the drama. I just read an email from HR that there will be a bazaar in the pantry from the US and UK. Fine. I was on my way to the comfort room when I saw them comming to me. I tried to resist. I told myself that I am not going to buy any clothes or bags until next month. BUT WHAT WILL YOU DO IF THEY ARE THE ONES THATS RUNNING TO YOU?!



I kept my cool. I tried to be calm. I went straight to the comfort room without looking at those things. I looked in the mirror and told myself "YOU CAN DO THIS!" It's dinner time and off to the pantry. I wasnt looking (WELL OKAY the truth is that I WAS sort of PEEKING) gorgeous clothes....



I went back to my table and Chips said he was going down. I can do this. I just ordered a Grande Java Chip from Starbucks. Its way better. I was sad by the way... something was messing up with my thoughts.



Let me tell you this. I TRIED. I really did. I went inside the pantry to take a look. I hoarded like 5 tops and a bag. I had it all reserved. FAIL!!!



But when I got back to get it. I had to choose not to spend over 500 php for those things. So I found myself buying a top from MNG and a bag from Miss Sixty.

 

I FAILED.

BUT

I'M HAPPY <3 <3 <3

xoxo

Dear Diary

Apparently, weekends with me are boring.

and catching up with YOU is way better.

Why are some people being so insensitive?

I just wanna go home and sleep.

PERIOD.

PS. Go buy a life in EBAY if it's going to be WAY BETTER FOR YOU.

DEMMIT!

Wonderland

Sunday - Was a tiring day. I did set the alarm to 9:00 to go home and pick up my dog and parents for a lunch out. Apparently I was not able to  get on my feet by 9 and hit the shower. Instead I got up around 12. So I hurried to the shower and prepped up and went straight home. I treated my parents to lunch at Gerry's Grill. We had to wait until 6pm because Leila (my dog) was going to be groomed and the scheduled release is around 6 (PLUS the fact that my folks are getting that sweet treatement to each other again. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!) =]. Went on a little shopping spree (just a bag! and some cool shades!) But didn't splurge on shoes and clothes.  Around 7, I have to rush back home because my boyfriend and I are going out to watch a movie.

We were able to get the 9:45 last show in 3D and it's worth it! We were also given free stubs for a choice of popcorn or hotdog sandwhich, to which I failed to get since the cut off is 9pm. Bummer.

TO THE BLOCKCINEMA. Please indicate on your FREE STUBS that the freebies can only be claimed until 9pm.

Anywayzz.

JOHNNY DEPP! OMG OMG OMG! But I must give it to Helena Bonham Carter and her enormous head. She was really really good being the Red Queen. I absolutely love how she says "FAT BOYS! WHERE ARE MY FAT BOYS?" and "I LOVE MY FAT BOYS!"

The sword effect on 3rd is really really cool too! I mean it felt like it went out from the screen and almost hit us . *Okay exaggerating moment. But it's true ;-) Of course Anne Hathaway is okay okay but the amazing part is that how the hell the incorporated the hands of Alice on Mad Hatter's face?! I mean she was shrunked and all and I give it 4/5 Stars! because 5/5 can be SHREK or even Toy Story. OH these movies I gotta watch!

After the movie we went home another dvd night and watched the Vampire's Assistant. Since im dead tired. I fell asleep before the movie ended.

Another week of work. =] Can't wait for another payday. Must hit the beach on the 2nd of April.

Coutdown 4 months to go before the trip!

xoxo

Beach Love

Have you ever found love on the beach? I did. I just totally love the water. The waves. The sand. The sun. Although I don't like getting a tan or something. Weird huh?! I just dont want to get that really really really dark tan if you know what I mean. Also, the beach is one place that always reminded me something else ;) It is where I did crazy stuff like getting drunk and sleeping on the sand. Starring at the sky and you can totally have a good view of the stars and just the sound of the water. I just miss it.

I was planning to go somewhere this April, but the thought of bumping into people on a Holy Week makes me think twice. Either relax or just sleep? But either way I still want to go out. So this payday (cross fingers) I will / promise not to buy anything that I don't need except pay for my bills get new wedges from So FAB!, buy new clothes/dress, eat out, go to the gym etc. Or maybe get a new good book to read.


Speaking of books, I have completed ALL of Sophie Kinsella's series :) Yes, the Shopaholic series, Undomestic Goddess, Can You Keep a Secret and Twenties Girl. I really really love how she writes. It's like every girl is a Bloomwood Girl.  =]

I have to go now. Some Calibration.

                     "Lack of planning in your part does not constitute an emergency on my end."

the FOUR letter word.

This is defintely something and the most undiscussed topic in my entire life. The four letter word. The L word. the heart word. I have been wondering my entire life what it feels like to love someone. Is it scratching his back when it feels itchy? Doing his nails and laughing with him? crying with him? walking with him?  Geez is that the essence of everything? How will you measure the FOUR letter word? By years? Some people say it should not be measured as it should be. It should be unselfish and everything.

I on the other hand is selfish. Selfish in a way that I know whats mine and mine alone. But now I just realized that, that Four letter word is applicable for yourself. Because you should give the best for yourself first. Start with yourself and make an example of what it is to others.

While talking to a friend awhile ago I had an equation which relates to the Four letter word.

Time + Money = Love

Reimbursement of money * Hassle of time being together = Breakup

Still, love is trusting someone not to break your heart.

It's still overated and full of crap. PERIOD.

Stuck

Oh boy, I'm pretty sure everyone has this type of days. Yes, I must agree I have had one of those "I will be famous one day" moments and even had a list to begin with. So far my EDSA billboard is still too far fetched. Maybe the closest I can get is uploading my picture over Facebook. If that's what you call publicity. PFFT.

For now, I am stuck here for the next 600 days. More or less. I am not good with math for all I know it's going to be 365 days PLUS another 180 days which couldnt be 600 days. Know what I mean.

First EXTREMELY laziest day of 2010

FIVE MINUTES. Just 5 minutes. It feels like forever. My brain is floating. The aircon is totally on whatever temperature it is. My eyes are getting a blurry vision and I dont want to wear my glasses.

Today is the official laziest most extreme laziness for the year 2010. Note. it is only MARCH 3.

Its the 3rd week and im pretty much struggling on how to go off next week. I mean in my head all I can imagine is me on the beach just totally bumming. My Cebu flight will be on July and its only March. Must do something with coupons and be merry with it.

P.S not making any sense.... must eat some chocolates. And Shop. Wait have to stop shopping.

XoXo

Uber ....

I am so stressed out.

Alot of process and documentation.

I NEED a cookie.

Make it 2.

Losing it

Its really hard to keep something up for a long time and even though I have the urge to finally tell myself of doing it I am just a complete failure. Well, not exactly fail fail but you know there are alot of things thats going on that I cant even keep track.

I just found on Cosmo the other day that their planner is on sale now. HMMMM I feel like getting one anyway. I PERFECTLY know that I might not need it but the coupons and the pages its much better to write on , well aside from the fact that its a bit smaller than the Belle de Jour Planner, it also has cute little stickers that you can use in marking days to remember. Okay I think im losing it again. Buying things that I may or may not need but there's this tiny voice saying "You'd probably need it in the future.. You'll never know when it'll become handy."

Oh Crap!

I just learned the lesson of proper investment. You know investment to shop or something. Last November I was going to attend a good friend's wedding, I was with my mum shopping for new clothes. It took us HOURS and when I mean HOURS like almost the whole day searching for the right dress. And Yes! I just found the store and got a violet dress just perfect for the wedding. I even had stiff arms. I think I had to change like 20 times. 20 freakin dresses!

Shortly....

After the wedding, my mum got the dress. Talk about investment. Oh my, she DID have a good investment on that one.

- W and I joined the bazaar just before Christmas. On the last day of the bazaar, I was able to find a bargain dress,my size,my style. I thought it would be fab for Christmas. Relatives are comming over and that would be the best outfit.

Comming home for Christmas was like giving my soul for free errr it doesn't make sense. What I meant was, every Christmas or any other gathering my mum would simply "BORROW" things - slash - make it her own. Which made me realize I have to buy things in 2's now. One, to secretly keep the item and completely deny of having it and Two, give it away like " I never used it and its new and its yours" or " Oh I just used it once and its yours"

So anyway to cut the story short, I went home for Christmas wearing a black and green dress and poof upon opening the door my mum has this look on her face like she-wanted-to-take-my-dress-off look. I get the point. She wanted it. I just gave it to her.

Even my collection of bags are at risk at times. LOL! I had to buy her one just this Christmas.

Then here goes another wedding just this January. I just HAD to buy a new dress for my officemate's wedding. I went back to the store which I bought my other dress last November and OMG they were on sale! *SMUG*

Unfortunately, the dress I'd like to purchase is not on sale but I bought it anyway. there's this gray dress which is on sale and I just had to buy it. I dont know when Im going to wear it but I think it'll be useful somehow. So I bought it. It probably costs around 238php when the original price was 800php.

And guess what?! I was able to use it just this weekend! =] its a wedding for W's and Z's sibling.

It was one of the best events.

I think I'll invest more on nice dresses (but still I have this ultimate <3 for bags too that I can't just take for granted).

4 more days before payday! =]

xxx

P.S.
I think I'm inlove with Taylor L. <3 <3 <3